Have you been exclude from family functions, i.e. weddings, funerals, reunions, just cause of something you had done in your past that no one can forgive for, even in Christian families? Well, I have. I didn't think anything of it till today. I can't go to my sister's (is with the Lord now) father in law funeral today cause I will make a lot of people uncomfortable and could possible cause a scene just by being there. I didn't go to my other sister's wedding for the same reasons. Because I can't go in turn my children can't go unless the ride with someone else and then its awkward for them also. It just hurts to in a Christian family that just won't forgive. I love all of them and have no hard feelings towards them in anyway but the feeling isn't returned. I feel like a amish person that has been shunned by their family.

Why are some women so hateful towards a strong woman? My hubby wants me to have more women friends within his parents church. I told him, "Babe, I would run those women off and they would end up hating me." I have tendency to speak my mind and sometime back it up with scripture and some Christian women don't want that in a friend. I was in the marine corp for a while when I was younger and I have this take charge type personality now. I love my husband's family but they are ones that preach the Word but don't live it type. Now, I'm no where near perfect and will be the first to say that but I do try to walk as closely with the Lord as a human can. Since I have been married to my hubby I have really tried, with God's help, to be submissive to him and part that is being quiet. I have learned to tone down my take charge personality but its still under the surface. I have a Christ like boldness that sometime puts people off as well and I'm learning to follow the Spirit as to when to speak and when to remain silent. I think my hubby is getting a lil upset at my quiet nature. He was upset at me this evening at his parents church when I didn't get up and hug his mom or dad, which I did when we left. I told him that my shoulder was bothering me. I think I slept on it wrong a few nights ago and he know this. Men, do they ever make up their minds what they want their wives to be.....meek and quiet or bold and speaking our minds.

I would like to buy three dollars worth of God, please.

Not enough to explode my soul and disturb my sleep.

Not enough to take control of my life.

I want just enough to equal a cup of warm milk.

Just enough to ease some of the pain from my guilt.

I would like to buy three dollars worth of God, please

 

I would like to find a love that is pocket-sized.

I don't want enough of God to make me love a foreigner or pick beets with a migrant.

Not enough to change my heart.

I can only stand just enough to take to church when I have time.

Just enough to equal a snooze in the sunshine.

I want ecstasy, not transformation.

I want the warmth of the womb, but not a new birth.

I would like to purchase a pound of the eternal in a paper sack.

If it doesn't work, I would like to get my money back.

I would like to buy three dollars worth of God, please.

 

I would like to hide some for a rainy day.

Not enough for people to see a change in me.

Not enough to impose any responsibility.

Just enough to make folks think I am OK.

Could I just get three dollars of God, please?